i've been practicing how to smile every chance i get. i do it so much, it just comes out naturally now.
sometimes it's on my face unnaturally too. i think i made atleast 3 drivers that saw my face smile back.
it wasn't even my intention to make them smile. it accidentally happened. now, i notice the people who are
smiling and the ones that are not. before it felt like the people who were smiling were condescending, but
now i feel like i'm at their level. kinda cool.

woa, chinese government gave death sentences to those involved in the tainted milk scandal.
the guilty ones had included a chemical called melanin so that the milk would pass protein content tests.

if death sentences existed for pyramid schemes and similar financial frauds, maybe we could have prevented bernie madoff.
if smaller time crimes got the death sentence for punishment, wouldn't that stop a lot of folks from being so brave?

it would also clear up lots of our prisons because most of them would sentenced to death before they can be housed there.

sometimes i feel self-conscious about my attractiveness and looks. when i was in 5th grade i burned my face and mummified and hospitalized for 3 months. as a kid, i think i was good looking but that accident really fucked up my confidence. does a person face change in attractiveness from minute to minute or is it usually stable? when i look in the mirror when i am healthy i feel like i look good. but, when i see my face in pictures, i look horrible. i wonder if it's because that's my real face, or i am just afraid of the camera and it's just capturing my nervous face? i would rate my attractiveness as a average of 6.5 objectively looking at myself. but today, i was walking at work, and these 2 hispanic girls were walking by me and one of them said to the other, grade this one. and the other one said, 9. so i was feeling good about it until i get home and i see my pics posted on facebook from a wedding i attended yesterday and some of the pics really i look like a  3.5 or 4. wtf is that. i am trying to figure out what causes that level of unattractiveness. and, i realized that in each photo where i am looking like crap, there is an alpha male who is stronger than me controlling the energy. the other guy looks brightened up while my attractiveness and energy are being drained. so, maybe attractiveness has a lot to do with confidence and energy flow. you have to be happy and smiling and feeling good to potentialize your true attractiveness. also, i think attractiveness is also a subjective thing. another person's 5 is another person's 9 or 10 and vice versa. i guess it all depends on who is looking.

10. Smiling Helps You Stay Positive

Try this test: Smile. Now try to think of something negative without losing the smile. It's hard. When we smile our body is sending the rest of us a message that "Life is Good!" Stay away from depression, stress and worry by smiling.

http://longevity.about.com/od/lifelongbeauty/tp/smiling.htm

i thought appreciation was over-rated, some kind of cliche bullshit that you hear from everywhere.
i didn't really give it a chance. but lately, i've been trying it and i feel that it helps clear the mind of
of that which is unnecessary. like for instance... i hate living with my dad because sometimes he gets
on my case about certain things. but, if i just overlook that for a second and think and appreciate how
much he is helping my life the irritability is silenced immediately. i am starting to realize that you can be
appreciative in just about any circumstance if you are creative enough. that means, as long as you are
creative enough to format your current situation into an appreciative form, most mental distress can be
done away with. and, if you are not creative enough to resolve it, you can always fall back on the most
basic appreciative form which is thinking, "i'm just thankful i am alive." you can't get any more basic than
that as a human being. if you do it the right way.. after realizing you can be appreciative of your situation,
you mental cloud or anger, or confusion should disappear. your mind will be put back into utter simplicity and
return to a reasonable state.

another instance is when i am invited to an event and i don't particularly like the activity or like the persons
attending the activity. this can easily be tamed by thinking, "i appreciate just the fact that i am invited." "i 
appreciate that i even have friends that invite me." it's a done deal. it no longer matters if i like the people or the
event. i'm just happy and satisfied being there. all the negative stuff blows out of the way. and ur just sitting
there really satisfied and content.

this all breaks down to greed. i want more in any given situation, it's not good enough. by being appreciative,
the greedy monster is tamed. this makes me fear that it will kill off my ambitions. but, honestly i'm one greedy
motherfucker. so, this new appreciative attitude should leave me somewhere near normal, after i'm done habituating
it.

hey, i tried cleaning my keyboard like that site taught... my keyboard looks brand new. check my last weblog post, if you want to learn how.

http://www.overclock.net/faqs/113182-how-clean-my-keyboard-best-way.html

Alright, first of all, make sure you take a picture of your keyboard before you start. Otherwise you won't know where the keys go and life sucks. Here's my keyboard.

Pretty ugly, yes I know.

Now flip the board over, remove all the screws and you might see something like this. Remember every board is different so be prepared to have a 100 rubber cups come flying out at you if yours doesn't have this nice metal plate like mine did.

If you have a cool plate, remove it and you will see something like this.

Remove the plastic circuit board and dump all the cups out of the way for now.

Now start removing the keys. Use something narrow and sharp to press each one through.

Now you can see all the crud under the keys.

Clean it off. I used a garden hose since it's all just plastic.

Put all the keys in a jar.

Add hot water and soap. Shake it up.

Now dump all the keys in a strainer and rinse them off with water.

Start putting all the keys back in according to the picture you took before you started.

Once you have all the keys in, flip the board over. You need to prop it up so that all the keys hang down and none are being pressed up. I found two power supplies work nice. Now put all the rubber cups back in.

Put the plastic board back in and make sure everything lines up perfect. If even one connection is off chances are the whole keyboard won't work.

Put the rest back together and you're done. Here's how mine came out.

http://www.overclock.net/faqs/113182-how-clean-my-keyboard-best-way.html