today i had a really great day.
i am sore all over tho.
i went to santa monica again today to do the double ropes.
i climbed to the top and did some pullups hanging by the ropes.
also, i climbed to the top and went inverted and did about 5 leg lifts at the top.
i never seen anyone do that there yet, it's about 30 feet high.
i got a little respect from the crowd.
one guy told me it was "extreme" lol
that's what i wanted them to feel, the extremeness of my bravery. haha
i am sort of a showoff when it comes to physical feats.
it's the same spirit in me that did polevaulting in highschool.

i made about 5 new friends there.
they were all generally very ripped.
but, what surprised me is that none of them have a fitness club membership.
i would have to say some of them were more ripped than i am, and they don't even lift.
wtf?!!?
i pay $600 for 3 years, these guys pay nothing and they are just as ripped as i am?
all they do is do callisthenics, do pullups & dips on the bars.
also, do regular pushups & sitsup at home.
i guess if you get really creative you can work every body part w/o using any weights.

but the best part of the day happened when i was watching this one guy doing pommel horse.
he didn't know what he was doing, but i could tell he was sorta doing the beginning part right.
so i started to copy him on a shorter stand for beginnners.
i tried like 20 times but i couldn't get it.
but these veteran pommel horse dudes kept showing up.
and, they basically taught everyone there the basics.
i got a free lesson in pommel horsing today.

this is basically what i was trying to learn.
i kept practicing alone for about 1 hour.
but, the coolest thing is that during that one hour for about 10 minutes.
a really really cute girl came up to me and started practicing with me.
she didn't really try much her self, but she was teaching me how to do it.
really really cute girl lol
it was awesome.
she made my day.
her name was cassandra.

man, i'm gonna be sore tomorrow.
but it was worth it.

also, with the pommel horse, i can go about 1 rotation now.
but, i can't seem to link that one rotation onto the second rotation.
i'll master it in about 4-5 sittings.
one dude was doing flares. he was badass.

i realized that i have so few subscribers that if i switch to explicit,
most of my posts only get 1-3 views.
that really sucks.
it kinda feels good to atleast know what i wrote was on someone's screen, at the least.
so, i'm switching back to normal discretion and gonna focus on writing normal things.
today was a really good day.

this is not me, but i did something similar at santa monica on thursday. i made some new friends there. and they supported me to get to the top. it was my very first time trying. i made it up about 75% but it was pretty tiring. then, one of the dudes from the ground shouted, "don't give up" i thought to myself, "who says i'm gonna give up?" so, i pushed myself to the top and came down like everyone else, double rope style. i think this type of work out builds more muscles than working out. my shoulders, arms, back, and traps are really huge right now compared to before. i'm going to santa monica again tomorrow. so, i'm gonna do it again. but this time, i'm gonna do pull ups at the top like this dude did on youtube.

1. just by believing i am friendly, everyone else starts to believe i'm friendly too.
2. when i believe i am friendly, people start to smile around me spontaneously.
3. i realized a pattern. there is a common theme in most of my trouble with people.
a. lack of generosity. not willing to go the extra mile, request from people feel like obligations that are offensive. (be generous)
b. inability to admit fault (be honest, and less defensive)
c. lack of consideration.  (be considerate in real-time)
d. pettiness. (life is a long process, there will be lots of petty details that really don't mean anything in the long-run, just skip over those and focus on what is really important)
e. comparing people. (don't compare people, it'll make the person positioned at the lower spot feel like shit)
5. alcohol sucks. i hung out w/ homies during weekend, had a beer. my stomach feel crappy this morning.
6. it's a blessing in disguise. 100's on the table, 100's on the floor, fresh out of work, on the way with some more. and i love it, yea yea. gangstas in the crowd, broads on muh shoulds....

7. goal: delicately assertive.
8. goal: unwavering underlying animal manliness.
9. goal: overt friendliness
10. goal: generous beyond expectations.
11. goal: healthier than the healthiest
13. goal: asiatic self-esteem.

u know, i notice that a lot of asian males talk alot of shit about their own race. why do they do that? they buy into the propaganda created by other races trying to tarnish their reputation. they even support and spread the propaganda used to uplift the status of other males in other races. asia is coming up strongly. asian need to realize we are a force to be reckon'd with. humility works in asia, but in the US it is seen as a sign of weakness. let's get ruthless and show them what's up.

1. no more tanning my face. it makes my face look older. the tan actually damages my skin.
2. i think i've done so much "friendly" affirmation, that i'm starting to forget the "manly" side.
3. lol
4. i cannot go back to wimpy, asexual, so, i will balance my "friendliness" with "manliness"
5. generally, everyone was very nice to me today. it's a good sign.
6. some dude bought 80 cases of coke today. i had to load the flat w/ all of them. and, transfer it to his truck, and unload the 80 cases of coke onto his truck. ugh.
7. there was a contest today who can sell the most product in the store. i won. i prolly pushed about $300 worth of merchandise. second place was probably 15 dollars. there was atleast 30 people competing, but only 2 were actively participating on the walkie.

8. i probably asked about 50 people today, "can i help you find something?"
9. seriously, this is prolly the best practice anyone can get on talking to strangers.
10. it really is the perfect job for me to get used to becoming part of society again.
11. most likely the number of times the average employee asks " can i help you something?" is about 1-2 times a day.
12. the reason why i did 50 is because i have an ulterior motive. i don't really care if t***** makes more money. i am getting practice talking to people.
13. seems each week i'm getting better at talking to people.

14. damn, i want to have a beer tonight. just one!!! c'mon!!! (i don't know who i am begging to. i guess to myself, i am not allowing myself to drink at all for a while.)
15. i haven't had any alcohol in 9 days.

ohh shit, IT's coming back.
IT IS coming back!!!!
this time IT's gonna be better than before too.
lot more wisdom gonna behind THIS one.
hollllllly shit, IT's coming back!!!!!!

wuddup,
too tired to write it all out.
today was basically a good day.
the t***** effect is on full power.

wuddup guys & gals, i'm changing my blog status to explicit.

since my sexual energy is rising, my blog posts will reflect this.
and, i do not want to offend anyone who has subscribed to me during my asexual days.

i'll prolly not write things too graphic, but it will be less tasteful as before.
i like to write about most things in my life openly here.

so, that being said. thanks for reading my posts while i was asexual.
i'm changing now, and experimenting with different dimensions of life.

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeee