i covered the manager's lunches and breaks today. i was the manager for about 2hours today. this is kinda mind blowing considering i was social anxiety/agoraphobia about 2 years ago. 1 years on sales floor and 1 year of cashiering really gave me enough experience with people to be able to do what i did today. i still got room to grow. so, not about to settle just yet. but, i'm just really happy to see myself be able to do these new things. this was prolly one of the best days of my life. pretty sure, it was the best day of my life. it kinda beat the day i won pole vaulting champion in high school. seemed like it was gonna be one of the worst days too, funny how things can just switch over like that.

i had front row seats and taking pics like paparazzi. lol

i think i am getting really close to becoming a functional adult.
all i need is a little more consistency in brain speed.
it seems like i can do it easily when i am on a sugar high.
i eat lots of mentos and i feel like i can keep up with the fastest females.

if you never forgive others, you can never forgive yourself.
and, if you never forgive yourself, others can not forgive you.
a part of your emotion is trapped, until you learn to forgive.

if you can forgive others, you can forgive yourself.
and, if you can forgive yourself, others will forgive you.
your emotions can be released, if you can easily forgive.

i can forgive it all.
i forgive myself.
i will be forgiven.

lately, i feel like forgiveness is the key to long lasting relationships
because, eventually stuff is gonna happen between two people.
and if either side don't have the ability to forgive.
the relationship is over.

pros:

1. environment where people with similar life experiences can support each other recover.
2. good side income for these celebrities who are having a hard time earning money.
3. a chance for these past-tense celebrities to make it back on to media.

cons:

1. being under the camera 24/7 cannot be a healthy environment for recovering addict. too much pressure and stress!
2. although getting ratings is important, forcing two people with negative past history like heidi fleiss and tom sizemore to live together is severely detrimental for their progress.

so from a doctor's standpoint, is it ethical to play with these addict celebrities lives for entertainment? maybe dr. drew has considered all these factors and maybe feels the educational aspect of the show will outweigh the cons.

with this said, as a viewer, it is really fun to watch.