November 23, 2009

  • sometimes i feel self-conscious about my attractiveness and looks. when i was in 5th grade i burned my face and mummified and hospitalized for 3 months. as a kid, i think i was good looking but that accident really fucked up my confidence. does a person face change in attractiveness from minute to minute or is it usually stable? when i look in the mirror when i am healthy i feel like i look good. but, when i see my face in pictures, i look horrible. i wonder if it’s because that’s my real face, or i am just afraid of the camera and it’s just capturing my nervous face? i would rate my attractiveness as a average of 6.5 objectively looking at myself. but today, i was walking at work, and these 2 hispanic girls were walking by me and one of them said to the other, grade this one. and the other one said, 9. so i was feeling good about it until i get home and i see my pics posted on facebook from a wedding i attended yesterday and some of the pics really i look like a  3.5 or 4. wtf is that. i am trying to figure out what causes that level of unattractiveness. and, i realized that in each photo where i am looking like crap, there is an alpha male who is stronger than me controlling the energy. the other guy looks brightened up while my attractiveness and energy are being drained. so, maybe attractiveness has a lot to do with confidence and energy flow. you have to be happy and smiling and feeling good to potentialize your true attractiveness. also, i think attractiveness is also a subjective thing. another person’s 5 is another person’s 9 or 10 and vice versa. i guess it all depends on who is looking.

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