July 29, 2009

• i think i am living with a little less fear and hesitation than i did before my near death experience. i basically braced myself for death. i'm really lucky to be alive and living a second chance. my life and decisions right now should reflect my new minset after losing my life once. any little fear and hesitations i had in the past are now nothing compared to bracing for death. i asked the scheduler to make me into a photo guy and he said i will start training, and will take the next available spot when it opens. i am starting to realize that in life, you can't just leave it up to chance for things to happen. unless you personally ask for it and make it happen, it never will. i now know that this is true in life, and i feel like i will have the courage to ask for and get what i truly want. nothing is scarier than bracing for death. so, it should be easy for me to get what i want in life. it's not even a scary thing, it is a good thing.

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