July 27, 2009

• i really thought alcohol was doing me good for the longest time. i thought it was relaxing my personality a little and allowing my emotions to be released more fluidly. but… this is only true initially. once you start to take alcohol regularly… before you know you become desensitized to the fact that you are changing. your mind starts to think very loosely and lose it’s exactness. you tend to make decisions based on this loose thinking so you tend to make bad decisions. before you know it your really clean room starts to accumulate lazy piles of clothing and 2-3 week old dust just chillin on the computer desk. your health starts to slightly deteriorate but this goes under the radar too. not blatantly sick enough to detect but bad enough for your physical, mental health to slightly out of whack. these slight negative effects of alcohol slowly accumulates and one day you find your life in a shit situation. worse case scenario it can come to this. so, before it happens, i am stopping altogether. i got 47 surveys today. see, i didn’t need alcohol to do it. i thought i did. i haven’t drunk in about a week. my personality feels like it’s old self. i like it.

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