April 9, 2009

  • one of the cuter managers got fired a few weeks ago. i miss her. i realize now that she is gone that she was trying to hook me up with duties that were easiest and least work. when i just became a cashier my goal was to become more social, so, these jobs she was pushing towards me seemed anti-productive for my goals. so, i was not very appreciative of it. she was letting me do the easiest jobs and at the best cash registers where work flowed the least. now that i know more about the cashiering area and the power struggle going on there to land the easiest jobs, it really makes me sad to think i just shunned that manager's attempt to help me. she lost the keys to the store and got fired a few weeks ago. fuck. i need to start being more appreciative of what people try to do to help me, whether or not those attempts fit perfectly into what i consider most desirable for me. if a man gives me a doughnut, but i really wanted a hamburger, that doesn't change the fact, the spirit and heart in which the person was trying to give me something.