i was staring at this hispanic girl from really close.. she was looking the other way so i was able to do it. she looked like a model and her face looked flawless from the angle from where i was looking. she turned just a little and her face's perfection lost a lot of it's high quality essence. she looked normal or maybe less than normal. but i realized, depending on how you look at a face, from a specific angle... these girls can be perfect. everyone has a specific angle or sweet spot where they are actually perfect. this goes for not only face, but body, smile, anything etc... a specific angle, or specific clothing, something that tweaks an average person into a superstar. then, maybe this is not only possible for how you view a person and their body... you can use this trick on a person's personality. you can see a crude person who is abrasive, but if you look at them from a different angle, that flaw can actually turned into a treasure.  crude, abrasive, harsh can be seen as comical, hearty, tough. this slight switch in angle can also be used to view my own life. instead of just looking at what is there and normal, it is possible to tweak the angle a little to make it into perfection. there is a sweet spot, sweet angle for everything... once it is found, it is euphoria and the struggle is lightened up a bit.

i re-filled my mentadent toothpaste a week ago. for the first 5 days only the white side kept dispensing. i was like WTF just wait and eventually the blue side will come out. today finally the blue side started to dispense. but, ONLY the blue side. ALL BLUE. i wonder when it will start pushing out both sides. i really look forward to it.

i realize this kinda like my life. first i have all the cash in the world, but no social abiltiies to enjoy it. now, i have social abilities but dirt poor and can't fully enjoy it. maybe eventually, both sides will start coming out at once.

i realized something about the customers that piss me off the most. they are most the pathetic ones, usually. they already have a angry or bitter emotional tone... so it's best to just leave them be. if i take their energy personally and connect with it, it's a total loss for me. by not reacting at all to their abrasiveness, they actually turn around and start acting nicer, in the end. it's incredible some people lose themselves and go into rage over 2 cents or because someone turned their cashier lane light off while they were walking towards it. it takes all kinds and it wouldn't be interesting without them. also, i have no idea what kind of shit they been through today, or yesterday, last month or the years before. they might have gone through some unimaginable pain in life that i have no idea about. best to leave them be and stick to my own business.

windows of opportunity to profit from life comes quickly and disappears just as swift. so when it shows itself, it is best to take it and enjoy it thankfully. 

certain types of people bring you up, sharing what they know, what they have to uplift you to another level.
other types of people, they try to keep you down, drain you of what you have so that they can leverage themselves higher.

i have nothing to prove to anyone. i do the things i do to maximize my contentment in life. i have no interest to live up to anyone's expectations whether it be an individual or a group. i have fallen from what is considered standard far long ago, thus i find myself with a peculiar sense of salvation. since i have so little, the smallest positive gains give me contentment.  since i find myself in the lowest denomination of work and financial wealth, i can no longer look down upon others. i am freed from any superiority complex via brute force. instead of being blinded by personal opinon, i want to experience wholesome reactions to life based on truth and objectivity.

current supplement list... fish oil x 3/day. b complex x3 day. multivitamin x 1 in the morning. dhea x 2/day and 2G's of vitamin C.

hey, so i was cashiering and witnessed a miracle of sorts. it was an hilarious miracle.
this chinese kid about age 12 sneezes really loudly and i see this piece of gum shoot
out of his mouth. the gum hits his dad in the chest. you would think it would just get stuck
on there, but it bounces off the chest, over the kids head and flies 20 feet. ironically it hits
the chest of another father who was just chilling there with his daughter. then, the gum just
hit the floor. it was like watching a pinball game, instead it was a piece of gum getting ping pong'd
around and flying. the victim father actually was about to get pissed because he thought someone
spit or threw gum at him. i had to explain the above to the father and he understood. sadly, i had
to pick up the gum and throw it in the trash.

miracle 1: kid sneezes and gum shoots out of his mouth. (i never seen that before)
miracle 2: it bounces off his father's chest
miracle 2b: it flies 20 feet
miracle 3: it hits another father in the chest.

most social people are emotionally flying. flying is actually the norm. not flying, is not living at all. not flying is dull and numb.  so, in order for me to become truly normal, i have to start flying. flying has to become my new bottom. i don't know what lies above flying.

i am starting to distinguish between what society's tastes are and what MY tastes are. i look at a girl and something inside me tells me she is PERFECT. there are many perfect girls i see throughout the day. but, i know under society, media and mainstream's judgment they may be considered imperfect.

when boiling eggs... if you keep it on too high.. then the bounce from the strong bubbles makes the eggs hit the saucepan and creates crack. optimum heat: LOW.

TripCost is a gas price calculator created to give those traveling in
North America an easy way to calculate the cost of gas for a one-way
trip. To get started enter the city you're traveling from and the city
you're traveling too, as well as your average MPG. You can adjust the
gas price and miles per gallon to get different results and use zip
codes and airport codes as destinations. i.e. San Francisco, CA (SFO) to Boston, MA (BOS). The end result is a detailed summary of gas costs.

http://tripcost.com/result.php?statecode=MO&search=Start+A+Quote&ID=TRIP

this thing is awesome... I used $2.00 per gallon & 20MPG.

from my house (alhambra) to my dad's store(west la) is $2.22. $4.44. round trip. (about $5) omg!

from my house to bally's in rose mead... 46 cents...  92c round trip!  (about $1)

so it costs me $1 to work out each time I go. if I work out everyday.. that's $30/mo! WTF!

that's as much as the membership itself! LOL

i'm glad i'll be part of 24 hour fitness come october. it will be just a walk away.

i'm limiting my workout days just to days when i have work, since i am already in the area.