January 12, 2009

• cashiering is transforming me into a social being and repairing my negative traits.

  you are what you surround yourself with. by cashiering, i am surrounding myself with PEOPLE. all varieties of them. all races, gender, ages... to be successful at this job,  i'm having to shave away all of my negative traits and prejudices so that i can work comfortably around people. i can't look down upon any particular race or socio-economic level because it will show through. nor can i really look down upon anybody anymore since i have this meekly, humble job. i can't be shy or talk quietly.. i have to be able to connect and communicate with customers. i can't be angry or depressed all the time because i have to be have decent rapport with customers. i can't be brain dead and just sit there like i did when i just surfed the net all day long. i have to keep my mind ON because i have to calculate change, be quick with scanning & bagging items, and communicate with customers. i can't be impatient because i have to take time with certain customers. i can't be headstrong and self centered and have my way all the time.. i have to give way to the customer and apologize where necessary.

  i'm not there yet.. but i'm getting there.

  you know, i think i had a really big head, for whatever reason in the past. i still kinda do. but, it's being tamed in a really good way. all these customers who are giving me shit are just making me into a more decent human being. they are giving me a chance to grow a heart. they are  giving me the opportunity to be humble enough to accept that i am not the only person on this planet that matters. in the end, i'm gonna look back at this as one of the crucial steps for me to find contentment in life. because not being able to adequately connect with people in this lifetime, isn't much of a fulfilling life at all.

  everyone has their own life, own circumstances, their own way of living. this is just mine, at the moment.

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