August 28, 2008

  • today notes

    1. spirit of sacrifice
    2. noble, deeper version of "friendly"
    3. trusting my own mind
    4. trusting my own heart

    5. a lowriding, shady looking dude in dark glasses threw up the crips gang sign at me today. i knew it man, when i shave my head to zero this kind of shit starts happening. but i really don't want to go back to 1 fade. as long as i don't do anything, it should just end at gang signs so who cares.

    6. i got pulled over by the cops today. it was because my back left brake lights were out. it was the first time i was asked if was on parole. wtf. i knew it man, when i shave my head to zero this kind of shit starts happening.lol

    7. my vision of "friendly" isn't just the superficial type that is displayed at the outermost layer of our personality. ofc that energetic, lighthearted, smiley energy is important too at times, but i want my version of "friendly" to be deeper. i want it to direct my thoughts, actions and emotions in a direction that truly makes me a good friend to humanity. i'm taking the word "friendly" to a new level. i want to make the word, noble. being a friend, being friendly, is one of the most basic & fundamental attributes of a heathy individual but also one of the highest achievements a person can make in thier lifetime.

    8. in order to be friendly, at times it is necessary to sacrifice. doing things that we don't want to do, and doing it anyways by sacrificing effort, emotion or energy, is a vital part of making things work between people. generously sacrifice for best results.

    9. i have become too adept at criticizing myself & finding flaws. i will now work on trusting my mind, heart & body. by learning to trust myself, i foresee myself expanding. i will discover new positive aspects of myself by allowing myself to trust myself. i trust my mind. i trust my heart. i trust my body.

    10. i used to love watching yakuza & mahjong gangster movies. i stopped watching them, i actually threw all the videos & dvd's away when the scam fallout happened. i wanted to wash myself clean of all impurities and repent so that my karma would improve. i really miss those gangster movies.

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