August 2, 2008
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notes from today
1. working at t***** is probably the best thing that could have happened to me.
2. i am actually very social in essence.
3. i talk to the strangers with ease. but it can be taken a little further.
4. if i master “friendly” and keep pushing forward with this. i will eventually become normal, maybe even quite good at people skills.
5. people responded to me very positively, today. i know i am improving. a little more tweaking to really figure this out.
6. this can’t be right, i just checked the weight scale and it shows 138.7 pounds lolololololol
7. i have taken this weight thing too far. hahahahahahahahaahahahaha
8. i know what did this… it’s the cessation of alcohol. i was taking in all kinds of calories from drinking alcohol. now, combined with working out 7 days a week, running everyday, and limiting my food intake. i’ve come too far. 138.7 hahahahahaahahahaha. i can’t believe. it.
9. the solution is simple. just eat more at breakfast & lunch, but keep the dinner servings low so that i have a good night’s digestion while sleeping.
10. this really cute girl at work was actually being proactive in talking to me today. it made me really happy. she is one of the cutest ones in the store too.
11. man, i need to figure out how to be more lighthearted & fun. but, i think this will naturally come when i master “friendly”.
12. my testosterone is back up, but now, i have “friendly” to tame it to social, acceptable level. but, if some dude wants a t-challenge, i am certainly ready for some energy battle. it’s funny, u can get a really t’d up dude really looking for some trouble, and disarm him instantly with a friendly smile.
13. actually, i’m getting so confident that even if some dude seems to want a challenge, i can just maintain my own energy and not let them influence me. if a person allows you to shift energy, to try to top theirs, it’s a sign that they are either close to you in power or higher than you. if you just maintain, you are just being you and they had no power to influence your biochemistry.
14. this one dude at work thought i was 23. this other one thought i was 19. when i told them i was 32, they were really shocked. like really shocked like in a daze for a few seconds lol. i think what keeps me looking and feeling young is the music i listen to and the interest in breakdancing. so, my soul feel like the new generations. it also helps that i’m 138 pounds. my peers are mostly all fat from just working all the time. it’s not often you find a 32 year old that works out, runs 7 days a week.
