never order soup dishes when eating out w/ friends.
only rice dishes, or entrees that i can split up into half, and take out.
this is easier on my stomach & at the same time creates an extra free meal.
it's a no brainer.
goodbye pho dac biet xe lua, maybe i will meet you again one day, when i'm wealthy.

humility and strength.

to be able to do flares on the ground. 

only problem with 24 hr fitness is their lighting. it needs to be brighter.
who wants to work out in a place that is dim?

i wonder if i can become a manager at ******
the lower ranking ones make about 40k/year.
all i need is a 4 year degree.
i already have one.
but, considering where i came from.
i think if i challenge for that position too early.
it will just ruin my confidence.
i should stick to my original plan of doing salesfloor for 1 year.
and, see from there.
the executive of operations, also just a 4 year degree... makes 130k./year.
but i think these dudes get those positions because they have worked at ****** for a long time.
managers at ****** always are made fun of.. but making 130k, that's pretty respectable.
it's more than some doctors.

i read so many articles saying regular crunches don't work.
high  repetition is not the way to get a six pack.
it's all bullshit.
it's all about crunches & doing high repetition.
i have been doing about 150-200 crunches a day.
i think in about 2-3 months it will be like one of those dudes in 300.

i've been working at ****** for over 2 months now.
i'm starting to absorb the working class aura.
when i walk into other stores where there are workers, i feel like i'm one of them.
i can feel a vibe with them and know we are going through the same struggles.

before i used to look down on them thinking they were trashy people who couldn't earn college degrees.
now, i'm just one of them.
lol

i really enjoy this job tho. i just need to stabilize & evolve a little more so that i become more emotionally available in conversations.

also, i fucking hate having people above me. it is a really humbling experience to take orders from people.
50k/hr & freedom to 8/hr and taking orders. it sucks, but luckily most of my managers are hot asian women.

my main problem is that i make a big deal out of small things.
also, a big deal out of assumptions & guesses.
if i can get over doing that, i would really become a relaxed person.

today was emotionally chaotic,
but somehow got through it seemingly ok.

huge discovery: when biting my food, in my mouth... if i evenly distribute the food on both sides of teeth, i get double the work done with the same amount of bites. lol i think i was only biting with my right side.

today's focus... manly, chill, friendly, smile.

look at how she dances. omgwtf