day's off from work suck.
i'd rather be around people all day long and earning money for it.
than, just forcing myself to find things to do at home.
i ate, worked out, went shopping, but it's not as fun as work.
can't believe i'm saying this.
few months back i was still scared of social situations.
now, i can't do without it.

did you know that when you wear a belt, it's supposed to fit just on the middle hole of all the holes?
i think my belt has 5 holes so with a size 32, it fit exactly on the 3rd hole.
the formula is to buy +2 size of your waist. so i'm a size 30.
i initially mistakenly bought a 30, went to go exchange it today at the santa anita mall.
my belt cost $38.
i thought first to buy at old navy or the gap, they had some for $15.00.
but, it's a belt that i will wear for a while and it's pretty noticeable so i got a decent one that i liked.
the guess cologne smells good. i should get a sampler online. lol

http://www.partywithapurposesf.org/

http://beta.aol.com/projects.php?project=aimexpress7

it's awesome. no loading up at boot. opens up through browser.

i'm starting to think that being "friendly" is one of the highest states a human being can attain.
i have focused on being "humble" "kind" and all sorts of other things.
but, "friendly" encompasses almost all things good in the human personality.
when i am friendly, i can't be arrogant, mean, bitter or dark.
self centeredness is lowered because it forces me to respect & recognize the existence of others.
it puts a smile on my face, and lifts my spirits.
it is a very proactive, lively, warm-hearted state.
i am gonna focus on "i am friendly" for a while.
it will become part of me.
like, how i incorporated my new diet & exercise regimen into my life.
142.5 pounds, high rippage, decent mass, cardio is good. eventually, world-class.
now that i got my body in proper gear.
it's time to tweak my personality.

xanga is really good. it deserves to be more popular than facebook.
some of my ideas to promote the site.

1. hire celebrities to blog on xanga. force all their fans to open accounts.
2. allow paid users to place their own google adsense ads on the page
margins. more people will be paid users and users will get a chance to
make money just by blogging.
3. do more publicity stunts.
4. maybe it's the name. a name change. facebook, myspace, friendster,
all have simple meanings that people can relate to and understand. if
you think about it, what the hell is a xanga?
5. everything else is perfect, all functions are superior and more user friendly than any of the other blogging sites.

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hmm maybe it's because xanga is weblog based. most people don't like writing. myspace, friendster, facebook use other functions as the main attraction. xanga just needs to mimic those popular details and incorporate them into the current system w/o losing itself.

i realize that when i am in a group of 3 or more,
i tend to ignore all of them and focus my attention on just one.
the one who i like the most.
this is not good.
it leaves the person with the attention feeling great, but...

what about the other people?
they feel neglected.
from now on, when i'm talking in a group, i will make sure i just talk to the whole group.
and, listen to everyone.

this might be a good lesson learned.
will come in handy in the future.

time for sleep, goodnight.

"friendly, friendly, friendly."

i guess not all plans get followed though upon.
today's theme got shifted from "humility & strength" to "friendly, friendly, friendly"
i think i said the word, "friendly" in my head a thousand times today.
it works.
i can't believe how different people react to you when you have a friendly attitude.
saw lots of smiles & positive reactions.
was a good day.

i got offered 43 hours for the week following this one.
i am being asked to become part of the "in stock" team.
it's the people who do research on the salesfloor and check what items needs to get order processing.
it pays 9/hr instead of the 8/hr i am getting now.
it is actually a position that is wanted by everyone who is working at ****** cuz it pays so well.
but, there is a drawback.
it starts at 6am.
i can't get up at 4:30am everyday. fuck that.
i declined the offer.
i hope i don't insult the lady who offered me the position.
this job position is only offered to people who she likes. and she's one of the top dawgs there.
man, i feel bad, she is being so nice to me. she got big titties too.
i really disappointed her, but i can't do no 6am.

so i was cashiering this one time.
an really hot attractive asian girl in a low cut blouse was buying dog food.
i'm talking about an 8.5 or better.
the type of girl i'm usually very intimidated by.
i thought to myself, why not? why not try small talk and see what happens?
if i fail, the worst that can happen is that i check her items out and it's over.
so i asked her, "what kind of dog do you have?"
she told me it was a mix of sorts and talked about her dog a little.
when she was done, i said, "oh really, i have a really cute toy poodle"
and all of a sudden she looked really enthusiastic and said,
"really? do you think our dogs can mate?"
"would you like to have our dogs mate?"
i'm like, wth! what is she saying?
i'm thinking if she wants our dogs to mate, then we'll have to exchange information and meet up at a different occassion.
i was not prepared for such a response.
all i wanted to do was have a nice chat with a really hot asian woman.
plus, it's kind of odd for an employee to be picking up on girls at the cashiering spot.
if the manager saw me i would prolly get into trouble.
so, i told her, "i'm sorry my dog has physical problems and prolly can't mate sorry."
her response was, "but, i really want our dogs to mate."
i'm like wtf.
"i'm really sorry, she can't"
we talked a little more, but the line was backed up, so i had to check her items out and end the conversation.
it was my first attempt to talk to a girl while cashiering, and this really odd thing happened.
man, if i was an experience pimp style guy, i would prolly have exchanged info with her and met her again.
too bad, it's me tho. i'm still learning just to be normal in social situations.

i see some of the guys at work use the "can i help you find something" business motto
to their advantage.
they basically ask that question only to customers who are hot.
i can tell, most of the guys do this.

i'm still new, so i haven't corrupted myself to that level yet.
i ask, "can i help you find something" to everyone, even if they are not hot.

but, i realized that i might be developing a new strange sexual power.
i basically see a really hot woman that i think is very attractive and just admire them.
i kind of feel a lustful feeling towards them. and i keep my eyes on them long enough.
then, magically about 8 out of 10 of them will actually find their way to me and ask me where
something is.
it's like a reverse, "can i help you find something."
instead of me asking them, they come to me to ask me something.
it's great. lol
i don't know how this works, but it does.
i am thinking maybe a lustful feeling is something that can be felt in the air.
who wouldn't want to be lusted after by an ok looking guy.
so their natural reaction would be get closer to enjoy it some more.
too bad tho, i'm so not versed in taking the feeling to another level.
it usually ends up with me just telling them straight forward where the item is,
without much more intensification of chemistry.