she is so cute. 

part of waking up, is folgers in your cup. 

how do u chose between 2 girls if they are equally cute, equally have good personalities and equally have good chemistry with you?

i realized today that exactly where you feel like you want to quit, back off, runaway, or hide is

exactly where you have to connect, be aggressive, not back down and push forward.

a person's limit is exactly where you start to feel like quitting, backing off, running away, or hiding.

if you want to break that limit and grow, you have to tackle that area on head first.

once you're in that zone where you have never been before, you're experiencing change and growth.

i think i cashiered for someone from xanga today.

i never thought i would do cashier for a xangan.

that was weird.

i didn't even mention it.

luckily i don't show my picture on xanga too much, so she had no idea.

she was a hotty.

some random dude offered to fix my car's body from a little accident i had a while back.

we talked a while.

he offered me a weekend job picking up the phone for his business.

pays $280 for 4 hours, on saturday and sunday.  $560, for 2 days.

that's about a whole months worth of work for just 8 hours. lol

but, the downside was that it needed someone with selling skills.

i don't think i have the ability to sell over the phone.

after, he invited me to go to his church with his family on sunday.

he said to call him up anytime i wanted to check out the church.

the dude's name was mike and his family was romanian.

he told me that if i dedicated my life to jesus, my life would change.

he said my life would be full of joy and happiness, once i decided to dedicate my life to god.

running prolly gives one of the best feelings in the world. 

i was reading a site about how to create an alpha male aura.

one of the strategies was to improve posture.

i had been working on posture for a while, and it does indeed increase alpha male energies.

but, i couldn't figure out why my neck wouldn't stay straight.

it really takes a lot of effort to keep my chin up all the time.

the site suggested to not use a pillow while sleeping.

you know this makes much sense.

if you spend 8 hours of your day sleeping with your head on your pillow with your neck bent,
it's natural that your neck sticks forward.

i'm gonna try to sleep without a pillow for a week and see what happens.

um this isn't what i was really intending to accomplish. lol

144 pounds and dropping.

the daily cardio takes off more calories than i anticipated.

my shirt sizes will remain at large.

my tank tops will be mediums.

my shorts, i am pondering... do i stick with larges or drop down to mediums?

i don't like my kneecaps showing so i'm either gonna stick with larges or sag the mediums.

weight changes brings about dress size changes.

144 for 5'9 is kinda underweight.

maybe i will start upping the weight at the gym to add more mass.

i didn't want to use heavy weights because my focus was on fitness, not massive muscles.

i usually benched 2x35's. now, i'm doing 2x45+2x25+bar45(185)to add some mass.

i am benching 40 more pounds than my body weight.

i am basically benching myself (185) when i was a fatass mosofoco 2000-2004'ish.

i was fat for about 4 years.

never again.

this is a permanent lifestyle change.

my japanese name is 慎司 (shinji)。

慎　-　tsutsushimu meaning
act with care, being cautious.

司　- tsukasadoru meaning
govern, take charge of, control, manage; officer.