thanks to one of my favorite xanga posters, mtking.

i've decided to work out 7 days a week.

this is kinda cool because the workout can focus on one body part per day.

chest > arm > tricep > back > shoulders > legs > random

it's much more relaxing than forcing 2 body parts per work out.

also, going 7 days a week to the gym forces me get used to being around people.

come to think of it.. i really think i've come a long way.

2004'ish, i was... 1. agoraphobic 2. had panic-attacks 3. fat-ass 185 pounds, 4. broke 5. no woman.

fast forward to 2008, now.. 1. working a normal job (outside of the house) 2. around people constantly 3. working out 7 days a week at the gym, 150 pounds decently ripped 4. broke & 5. no woman.

3 out of 5, improvement, is not so bad.

man, these improvement should have been tackled down a decade ago.

but i guess later is better than never.

maybe the affirmations i started in 2005 are really working.

takes a while and the lessons & improvements come in very weird, unexpected ways.

persistence & desire seems to be the key.

and, a little trust in god.

and, a little basic respect & love for people in general.

this financial disaster i'm going through might actually be a blessing in disguise.

altho i am cashless, i feel much more alive & whole than any time during the last couple of years.

i get to be around people CONSTANTLY.  there is no way to run away from it like i've been.

the co-workers are quite friendly, helpful and easy to get along with.

i'm learning new social skills from mimicking my co-workers & customers.

i need to frequently use my walkie to communicate with people in the store, so my fear of talking w/ strangers is totally gone.

i am realizing that my brain is thawing out and sorta catching up to real-time.

the alertness & speed necessary to competently do the job is prolly 10 times what i'm used to.

i am catching all the bad social habits that i have and working hard to change them.

one thing i notice myself doing, is forgetting about people i was just talking to when i am distracted by something else.

for instance, when i am talking with a co-worker and a customer asks me a question, and done with them.. i am totally blank as to what i was talking about with the co-worker or worse totally leave the area forgetting the co-worker all together. lol so bad. i need to figure out how to keep them in my short-term memory cache or i'll really start to piss people off in the long run.

but, all in all, i believe there is progress. it's fun being at my work place.

some dude on cnbc is predicting $12-15/gallon gasoline.

omg.

i thought $4/gallon was pushing it.

airlines are saying they will have to increase ticket prices and charge for baggage.

they are saying the airline industry was not built to withstand oil prices of $125 a barrel.

i emailed the construction project manager of the atlantic times square on hellman & atlantic.

grand opening won't be till fall of 2009.

it's sorta perfect timing because that's when my bally's membership expires.

god is watching out for my ideal fitness club membership transfer to 24 hour fitness.

other stores that are supposed to become part of atlantic times square:

amc theaters, coffee bean, tea leaf, cold stone creamery, great steak & potato, quizno's
surf city squeeze., la salsa and chili's.

also part of the complex with be 210 high quality condominiums.

this will be so cool, it'll be a 5 minute walk away for me.

I can't wait till 7:15pm.

I'm gonna run hard. Hardest I've run in years.

I realized today that the cardio yesterday had a huge effect on my mental state.

I was more relaxed and it seems I was much more in touch with my entire body.

Although I've been weight training for a couple of years now, the cardio was missing.

I'm gonna try to run/walk (ralk) for 1 hour each day. (before sunset)

That's on top of the 30 mins I'll be going to the gym 7 days a week as well.

This is all after 8 hours of work.

Where am I getting all this energy? I am amazing myself.

it costs 10,000 xanga credits or $10 USD to change my xanga id. lol

i think it's better just to create a new account. haha

is there a way to change my xanga id? i'm tired of it. i want a new nickname. 

start walk: 7:15pm

end walk: 8:05pm

total walk: 50 minutes.

i love walking.

there is a new chinese noodle restaurant right next to shun fat on atlantic.

dumplings for 99cents.

will give it a try next time.

white zinfandel is good.

nm it sucked.

i got my first paycheck

$161.00

all of it going towards paying off my debt.

went from $60,000 in 2 hours to $16.00 in 2 hours.

if this doesn't teach me humility, nothing will.

actually very thankful for this experience and opportunity.

i'm doing things, i've never done before.

stretching my mind and personality in directions they've never been before.

3 employees got arrested yesterday at my particular store.

they were jacking items out of the backroom.

what fools.

3 years in prison for a couple of bucks.

i have to learn from their mistakes and not do anything shady whatsoever.