I'm a bit of an amateur when it comes to getting things done in the now. I used to be a bigtime procrastinator. Basically everything I needed to get done, I would leave for the last second or just not do it at all if not urgent. But lately, I am starting to get things done on the spot when I think of it. The mantra "do it now" in japanese, "ima yare" has been so helpful to me. I'm becoming so adept at getting the major needs done that I am starting to do the minor things that need to be attended to. Wiping off dust on my desk, organizing my office space, sending email responses, paying off bills, all get done on the spot, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM. I am hoping that this state of doing things now becomes so ingrained into my personality that everything gets done ASAP, naturally, like breathing air.

One major thing I've been procrastinating on though... is getting a JOB. I am hoping all my self-improvement & social activities are preparing me to eventually be ready to get a job.

I have my attention on something... If it works out like I hope it too, I might be able to get back into daytrading again in about 10 months.

Slept at 4:44am, after hanging out w/ friends till 4am.

Woke up, fully charged at 9am.

A little over 4 hours of sleep. Cutting down has it's perks.

I'm gonna go bike to Ralphs on Atlantic to buy some turkey stuffing.

Got invited to go to Cabazon Outlet stores Thanksgiving bonanza, it starts at midnight tonight. BB wants us to meet at his pad at 4am. WTPHO. Too early.

day turkay happay!

Schedule

1. Day before Thanksgiving is busy at my dad's store so putting in some work from 1pm today.

2. @ 8pm I am off to LAX to pick up my friend Alex -- back from Thailand.

3. Was gonna go out w/ Dae & crew afterwards but realized I have work the next day at 7am.

*Lesson learned -- when scheduling myself in for an event, I should think if I have work or anything going on the next day, or else I will end up cancelling at last minute like I am going to do in a few minutes. "Always learn from my mistakes."

High Energy

This morning, I woke up at 5:30am.
Lately, I've been only getting 4-5hours of sleep and I feel totally energetic and get most errands done before lunch. I think this excess energy is coming from a cessation of a certain activity. BB advised me that I would be healthier if I cut down on that activity and sure enough, I got so much excess energy I don't know what to do w/ it. It's got a another side-effect, when I see pretty girls anywhere I get excited too easily. I need to learn self-control.

Emotional Tone Control

This morning I learned a new mantra/affirmation trick. Some of my affirmations are really heavy in emotional tone... like "I never hold grudges" or "I learn from my mistakes" If I position these affirmations in my mind and leave them as they are, I find myself w/ a really heavy, dark aura. The new trick is to add a positive, happy, light affirmation right after the heavy one, to balance out the emotional tone. For example... I have a negative thought about a person... I would stop it by saying, "I never hold grudges" THEN I would add to it, "Because I enjoy life and like to feel good!" I think this method is gonna work, will try it for a few days and see how much my emotional tone changes.

I can be whoever I want to be. I just have to be persistent and have the mental prowess to push through and create the person I want to be. There is no limitation to what I can create, only limitations are created by myself. I decide how much I can change , how fast. I decide how much love, courage or fear I have in our lives. I create our current state of being. Noone else, not even my past. I'm pretty close to conquering social anxiety. I flying knee-kicked that thing in the face pretty hard, I don't think it can get back up. This is only the beginning too, I'm just getting started. I won't stop!

Mantras that got me this far:

"I never hold grudges." "I learn from my mistakes." "Good Posture" "Do it Now" "I am always learning." "I keep improving everyday." "I am already relaxed." "I am full of love." "I am a positive thinker." "I am unstoppable." "I am changing from the core."

(I get brainwashed by TV, media, religion, education system, by repetition and through habit, I get owned by these organizations. You can own yourself, by constantly feeding your mind w/ the affirmation that will bring extreme progress & happiness into your life.)

I really think good posture is at the base of a healthy life. Most people I see on the street have very bad posture and it makes them look unconfident. You act the way your body looks and feels. When you wear nice clothes, you feel good. Same w/ posture, if you have a straight, healthy posture, it'll effect your thinking and attitude guaranteed. Even your voice will come out different. Trick is not to let anyone else w/ good posture intimidate you into breaking your posture. You hold that shit strong, and maintain no matter what. Keep your chin up too. (not sure how much this advice works for females, but for males i think it is vital.)

Actions that helped me improve:

-Taking babysteps. Not overwhelming myself & pacing my progress at a rate that is comfortable.

-Moving towards that which scares me. Instead of running away from these things, I confronted them. Each time it gets easier. After a while, it becomes fun.

-Constantly looking for self-help books at the library and online. There are so many people who have already treaded a similar path as us. I can learn on our own, trial and error style, but standing on the shoulder of giants is a good way to go too.

-Remembering the good things that people have done for me. Writing these things down in a notepad.txt file.
-Remembering the pleasant feelings that I felt. What triggered it. Writing these things down in a notepad.txt file.

-Being thankful for all the progress I've made.

-Being thankful for all the friends that are there to help me, off and online.

-Being thankful to my family for supporting me.

-Physical activity - working out, biking, walking. (VITAL) Tip the odds for success in your favor by keeping the most important vehicle in your life, the body, in optimum form.

"I am ready." "I will make it happen."

Try dancing to a mp3 while you fold your clothes.

Lay the clothes out on your bed so that you can fold them at higher elevation making it possible for you to dance on the floor.

You get cardio.

You get to practice new dance moves.

You get a hand-eye cordination work out.

It is straight up, fun.

Before you know it, the clothes are folded.

Dancing can be mixed w/ all types of mundane chores, but maybe not stuff like washing dishes for obvious reasons...

Or mowing the lawn unless you are cool w/ ur neighbors seeing your dance moves.

I see you windin’ and grindin’ up on the floor~
I know you see me lookin' at you and you already know~
I wanna love you, you already know~
I wanna love you, you already know~~

Jon-Jon & BB & I bike/rollerbladed from Will
Rogers to Venice Beach last Sunday. We met up with Phil & Soko there. This is the route we will be taking again today. I bought a bike rack this week, it cost me $70. I have no job. I put it on my credit card, what am I doing? lol Anyways, It's sunny out today, so most likely it's ON! We are trying to go out every
Sunday to get some cardio in. It's a very scenic route. So lovely. I'm
so glad summer never ends in California. Here's some pics.

Near Will Rogers, water is surprisingly blue/aqua.

the bike path from higher elevation

Dope looking architcture. I liked these two buildings specifically for the windy staircase, so cool, isn't it?

the colorful building was cute looking.

Beach Blvd & California.. near Santa Monica..if you like taking long, relaxing strolls, this is the place for it.

Ever since I began my newer phase for my quest for self-improvement/actualization (Positive Thinking Method - May2006ish) I've
been going to the Santa Monica Publica Library atleast 2 times a week.
There's treasure full of information there to make yourself & your
life better. Sometimes I rent the books, walk down from 7th St. all the
way down to Beach Blvd and just read there. Look at this old man, he
knows how to pick the reading spots.

These two KNOW too, how to pick the reading spots. One thing though,
when the scenery is so beautiful your attention goes from the book to your
surroundings, it's somewhat of a distraction.

the on/offramp to the PCH @ Beach Blvd & California St.

I went clubbing at a Santa Monica Blvd Club called (lan tanas or maybe las tanas) to celebrate Tim's bday. Sto, Vix, Dae, Andy, Lilly, & their friends were there. Hip hop music, the way it should be. 98% Asian. I liked it. I didn't get the courage to ask a girl to dance w/ me. So my friend and I were just dancing in the outer circle. I follow my friend inward, then I found myself just dancing alone in the center of the dance floor. This really tall asian girl started to dance w/ me. First time in my life, I'm dancing w/ a girl at a club. Really content about this, but this proceeded to other things I never did before either. I was mildly confused because many first time experiences occured at the center of that dance floor. After the song, she thanked me and she was on her way. She really rocks. I hope she has a good life and happiness be with her always. I didn't even ask her, her name, I'm really an amateur. But her personality and outgoingness will always be remembered.

PS: Tomorrow I go biking from Santa Monica to Venice Beach, around 1:30pm. I need to sleep.
PS2: Dude, I woke up at 7:00am. I only got 4 hours of sleep again. I am really turning into Donald Trump, no joke!
PS3: Bill Clinton also only sleeps 4 hours each night.

edit add >> w/ BB & Garret > Shelly's Bday @ Hollywood Canteen > Gardens on Valley until 2:30am.

Sleep @ 3:30am. Wake up @ 7am. 3.5 hours of sleep. Work in a few minutues. I think listening to Donald Trump's e-audiobooks is starting to pay off. The Donald's lifestyle is starting to rub off on me. He only gets 4 hours of sleep each night too. This is good, very good. Billion dollar lifestyle here I come.

The Best Buys on Sawtelle and Olympic had a huge line of about 130 people, mostly gamers and UCLA students. Yes, I counted them personally. 130! They are supposedly selling only 140 PS3's all together. A mere 20 of them being sold at midnight tonight. I can't believe these fools are gonna sleep / camp out overnight there! Or maybe they aren't such fools, they gonna purchase these machines for less than $500 and sell them on ebay for over $1500. That's 1G for kicking it w/ your friends on the street for one night. Cool deal. I was thinking about cutting in line by paying one of the guys in front $100. Later found out people are selling their spots in line for $1,000. LOL So crazy this PS3 mania!

It's fun walking up and down Sawtelle, so many nice shops & cuties all over the place. If you see a Japanese guy with a very shaved head and very good posture walking around w/ very yakuza-looking glasses (Nine West), that's me.

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My dad's employee sux! Always notifying at the last second! Work all day tomorrow & Saturday. I say all day but it's really only a few hours a day, I usually take off out the back door and go chill at the Santa Monica Public Library, The Promenade, UCLA's Drake Stadium, Santa Monica Beach, Venice Beach, Marina Del Rey, or Malibu. Shhhhhh. Especially about the Malibu part, I waste so much gas going there! But it's so nice up there, can't resist. Let me know if there are other good chill spots I can explore in the WLA area.

Personal Daily Horoscope of Wednesday, 15 November 2006

This is a time of inner peace and balance. You have the serenity to
look into yourself and come to a deeper understanding of what you
want, what you need and how you should go about getting it. You try to
live through your feelings as well as your intellect, and you
communicate with others at both levels. Since you understand your
own moods and feelings so well today, you are also in a good position to
assist others in understanding themselves. Through your relationships,
particularly those with your partner, you will come to know yourself
better than at most other times. Since this is a time of balance and
equilibrium, you should study your personal life and find out how to
correct any misunderstandings and difficulties with other people.
Today you are able to make the compromises necessary to getting along
with others.

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Sun Trine Moon exact at 17:46


activity period from 15 November 2006 to 17 November 2006.

Mooks: If you like this type of detailed horoscope, try out astro.com.. the neat thing about it is that the horoscopes are created not just with month/date/year, but also time & location of birth. cool huh? ofc entertainment purposes only.. it's fun to look at though.