October 30, 2006
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Thankfulness.
One night when I was a child, I remember complaining about how little
money my father had given me prior to attending my elementary school’s
carnival. He probably gave me $20, but this was not enough. I had this
strange sense of entitlement. It was never enough. In my mind, I
deserved the MOST. Our kind employee, Sumio-San, overheard me
complaining. He somehow felt sympathy for me, opened up his wallet and
handed me a $5 bill.I
rememebr seeing the $5 bill and thinking it was trash. I threw the
money in the air, turned, and ran away even before I could see it fall
to the ground!!!OMG !! What fucking asshole of a kid I was!!!
I
think this strange sense of entitlement follows me to this day. It
keeps my world narrow. I cannot expand because somehow I think I
already deserve EVERYTHING.BUT…
I’m learning to
appreciate all that I have. I got a new motto… “Be thankful for
anything that comes my way.” I started chanting this in my mind a few
days back. It’s made a huge difference in perspective. There was a
self-created ceiling in my mind. I broke through by being thankful and
having gratitude of all that is great in this world. When I am
thankful, my position of arrogance and entitlement is switched to one
of humility. With this humility & gratitude, my mind’s world is
expanded wide open. The ceiling is gone and I realize I have so much to
grow. I haven’t even tapped my potential. I realize this and am
thankful for this. This is what I was thinking today while driving back
from Costco, Motherfuckers.Mukai.
Comments (8)
it was so enlightening until you inserted the costco motherfucker part. geez. haha.
puhahahahaha. nice. o what to do, what to do, with all this power~
dude, even when it’s a penny that you receive, you should be thankful for it. once you can be entrusted for being grateful just for this small amount, you’ll soon be given more.
now that you’ve figured this out, are you gonna help someone else figure it out too? Like would you want someone else to do the same, and possibly hurt another person’s feelings? I hope you become some kinda mentor and teach someone the lessons you’ve learned.
Jae
Thanks for the good reminder.
it’s a cycle. everyone leaves and then comes back. because, you know, xanga is brokeback – and you know what jake g said about not being able to quit joo.
mooks, it’s a love story, not only a gay or cowboy movie. and yes, it involves two gay cowboys…but…the ending is tragic. so if you’re not in the mood for happily ever after, you should see it…
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